June 3

Every time I sit down to write I always automatically stop to think about what to write, but I'm curious and want to try just going ahead and writing (like I am now). Today I am writing at the very end of my day. I just said goodnight to my dear friend Rebecca. It was revealing to talk to her about Simon. I felt able to connect to all that I feel about his circumstances, mine, my family's and the household. I could feel the sadness and the softness, the rough spots and the intensity. I think that I have given myself very little leeway to go into those feelings. So I was grateful for Rebecca's quiet, listening ear.