Well this is good. It's only 10:30 and I'm on to my end of day writing. I'm starting to get a healthy feeling of consistency to this. Right now I am noticing my tendency to try and do multiple things at once or do lots of things quickly. To jump around and think about other things and then come back to work on this. I want to cultivate monotasking in my life. Practice the art of focus, and of putting intention and dedication into any practice.
Other things that it feels important to write down.
Last night at the house reflection circle I was thinking about the other things that I want to cultivate in my life:
peace, spaciousness, patience, love, hosting, balance.
Some other things that struck me in the circle:
Enlargening our perception of the system so that things become clearer. This can also be 'tracking', 'awareness'.
The practice of staying present to your family, even while you're in the middle of those dynamics which always play out.
The concept of metaconnection. staying connected to someone on a higher level because of awareness of their patterns.
Non-transactional interactions.
Some questions I'm left with:
How is vulnerability not vulnerability?
How is sacrifice not sacrifice?
For any given coercive pattern, can we practice something to dismantle it?
What would an acceptance & desire meditation look like?
About Simon.
The more i have been reading about positive psychology, the more I have been talking with Jean, the more I have been thinking about it, the less positive it seems that Simon is on the medications right now. It's actually seriously concerning and when I think about it I get quite sad. I'm wanting to talk to mom and dad about reading this book Flourish by Martin Seligman which I am reading so that perhaps we could get on the same page and provide Simon with a consistent support system, one that was more likely to get him recovering than the road he's on right now. So I want to talk to them about that. Jean has been so helpful in her reaching out to him, especially in this time of high stress for her. I think I will read some more of Flourish tonight.
Oh yeah, I should let dad know about the next LRC intro.
The dates for the LRC learners is May 21, 22,23 Saturday-Monday because it's a long weekend. Tanya and I are meeting at 4 oclock tomorrow to talk about that.
What Went Well, May 3
Going to the library to do web design.
Playing ridiculous doodle games with Alex at Coffee Culture.
Tonight I was struggling with the concept of spending the evening alone and just coming up to my room to do something by myself, but when I finally let go of that and came up here to watch a TED talk and read Flourish, Tanya immediately came and knocked on my door, and decided to stay and watch that TED talk with me. It was the one by John Hunter about the World Peace Game. It was an affirmation that it is almost always 'letting go' that can lead to results you were desiring in the first place. Coming to my room early and sitting down to do this writing is really working well for me.
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